Cocktail Stage

The journey continues, my second day on Weight Watchers and from experience I am at the excited cocktail stage; the breathless eager want to succeed by working the plan and measuring, weighting and tracking every single sip and bite. Yesterday, I ate balanced 3 meals with snacks evening having a little chocolate and mike’s lemonade. Today, as I sit with my sweet husband as he naps I ponder how I will keep up on the program when I start back at school which means attending class, tutoring students, studying, reading and research.

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Sharing My New 2011 Journey

The new year always bring a plethora of goals, plans and resolutions. I have always disliked making and breaking New Year’s resolutions.  So I am not embarking on a weight loss program because of a New Year’s resolution but rather because I have spent several weeks decompressing from an eventful fall semester.  My decompressing process has included mediation, vegetation, TV watching, recreational reading, researching, pondering and writing.  Today is my first day back on the Weight Watchers program.  You might wonder why I might take time to share.  I hope that by sharing others will be willing to share with me their thoughts, feelings, failures and successes about any goal, plan, or resolutions then we all will a better chance of success and not failure.

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Musings on books, music and my favorite TV shows

Part of the joy of winter break is the time and inclination to indulge in activities you missed turning the semester especially since its rained more days than not.  So during the break between semesters, I am catching up on my recreational reading, discovering and listening to music and having several personal TV marathons.

Over the last couple months, my favorite author’ published new books which I read: JD Robb and her latest Indulgence in Death; Christine Feehan and her latest two Dark Curse and Ruthless Game; Lynsay Sands  and her latest Hungry for You;  and Brad Warner and his latest Sex, Sin and Zen.

I listened to a variety of music.  My iPhone, iPod, CD and Vinyl collection are eclectic. In the last couple days, I download music by Juan Diego Florez, Within Temptation, Shania Twain and Anna Netrebko, very diverse.  This morning I was thinking about I can group my music choices into time periods.

Here is my ten favorite tunes from my party girl days: So Alive by Love and Rockets, Eye of the Tiger by Knightsbridge, I Can See It In Your Eyes by Men at Work, Phantom Bride by Erasure, Children of the Night by Whitesnake, Shell Shock by Heart, Like An Egyptian by the Bangles, It’s Still Rock n’ Roll to Me by Billy Joel, Material Girl by Madonna and Born in the USA by Graham BLVD.

The absolute best part is having time to indulge in a TV marathon.  The first marathon was the re-watching Season 6 Supernatural which went on a mid-season hiatus until the end of January.  During the middle of October, I discovered Winchester Radio but did not listen to the show very often.  Why do I mention Winchester Radio? As I launched my Supernatural marathon I listened to the podcast about the episode then watch the episode. I gained a whole new appreciation for each episode after listening to the women of Winchester Radio.

The second marathon was White Collar which is my all time favorite TV show. I watched all season one and the first half of season two over three-day period.  I could say I watched because the acting is terrific, the mixture of drama and comedy makes me laugh and cry when right, the one-liners are mind bending but really the baby blues are what initially drew me to the show.  Now I appreciate the entire list including the hot sizzling baby blues of Matt Bomer and cannot wait until January 18th.

The third marathon was watching The Vampire Diaries.  I do not know what it is about vampires but I have always loved ever since I picked up my first Anne Rice novel as a teenager, 15 years before L.J. Smith wrote her first paragraph about the Salvatore brothers and the girl they loved.  By the time L.J. Smith’s books starting being published I was busy pursing career and reading adult novels so I missed reading her books but my love of Vampires make turn on the season premier of The Vampire Diaries.  Wow I was hooked with the fog, crow and cemetery and I fell in love when Damon uttered the phrase “Hello Brother” with the sarcastic wit and amazing smile. Over a four-day period, I watched my Christmas present to myself, Season 1 DVD collection of The Vampire Diaries along with the second half season to date. I commented on my marathon, chatted with a few people via several different social media platforms and generally savored every delicious minute.

So as I enter 2011 with school still three weeks away I have to find my inner balance to  finish projects, prepare for the new semester, work on research, share my thoughts with the universe and have a little fun.

Seize the Day!

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Reflection and my thoughts about Sartre

School has been out for nearly two weeks and the rainy season has arrived with a fury along the Ventura coastline and I stayed at home to avoid the crazy drivers and flooded gutters, driveways, canals, and roads.  The benefit of staying indoors is that I have had time to ponder and reflect on a variety of subjects.  In addition, my practice of zazen has helped the day-to-day clutter be swept away allowing for a deeper reflection.

In that regard, I want to share how a person’s conscious self is a collection of experiences which have both willingly and unwillingly created experiences from childhood through today. In the words of the philosopher and writer Jean Paul Sartre, “we are condemned to be free;” he had a different viewpoint on existentialism than others of his time.  Sartre’s brand of existentialism believed that the traditional philosophy and religions of the west see the world as essence precedes existence while he believed that the world and especially human beings existence precedes essence.

My conclusion is that too many times people have allowed others dictate their personal choices. We make the mistake of thinking other’s opinion is more important than our own.  We need to take responsibility and find our own essence.  We are free to act but realizing that we are also responsible for the consequences. As Sartre says we are condemned to be free.  We are free to choose and it is reflected by our attitude and actions.  When we allow others to create a construct and define our life, we are living a heterogeneous life rather than living an authentic self determined existence, an autonomous life.

As one my professor’s described consciousness in Sartre’s  world of existentialism is that consciousness is a perpetual mound of clay, you can form the clay but when you stopping form it the clay goes back to its formless state; food for thought.

The reflections have given me food for thought, what thoughts do you have?

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Hawaii Five-O “Hana ‘a ‘a Makehewa”

Since the debut of the Hawaii Five-O pilot on September 20th, the re-imaging of the classic TV show of the late 1960’s and 1970’s has been compared to the original series.  For fair and balance commentary, I have to share that I like the original series in re-runs.  I was not sure if I would care for the new show because many re-makes are less than adequate. But when I heard Alex O’Loughlin was cast as Steve McGarrett I knew I would not miss an episode.

I have found the first 12 episodes from pretty good to amazing depending upon the episode.  The show is homage to the beautiful locates found on the island of Oahu.  The beach where Steve McGarrett’s home is filmed on the show is my favorite beach when I visit Oahu. Every time the show has views of the windward coast it makes wish I was laying on the beach at either Makapuu Beach or Kualoa.

Hana a’a Makehewa which debuted on Monday, December 13th contained a story arc back to the pilot and included Victor Hess who murdered Steve McGarrett’s father in the pilot.  The Christmas themed episode resolves the case with Victor Hess his arrest but generates questions about who is Wo Fat and about the burnt $10 million dollars?

Hawaii Five-O is always programmed on my DVR every Monday night; the reason ranges from the amazing scenery to the action crime procedural to Alex O’Loughlin outstanding acting or his outstanding abs.

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Hungry for You

Last night instead of watching TV, I read the latest novel published by Avon Books and written by Lynsay Sands “Hungry for You”, the next in her series about the Argeneau family.  In the spirit of full disclosure, I must admit I read anything vampire related and I especially love the genre of paranormal romance.

Lynsay Sands definition of vampires is different from any other author I have read.   First, they do not want to be called Vampires but rather Immortals and they trace their origin back to Atlantis and scientists practicing genetic engineering.  They are not dead or affected by any of the traditional lore even daylight but to stay healthy they need to consume human blood but almost entirely from blood banks.

In the novel I read last night, the main characters Cale Valens and Alexandra Willan were thrown together by their families because they hope that the couple is perfectly matched.  The pairing is confirmed when Cale cannot read or control Alexandra but she is a driven career woman who does not have time for any man.

In the current publishing environment a person can buy a physical copy of a book or download a digital version via many devices.  I have found that I still prefer to buy a physical copy any day I can make it to Barnes & Noble but I do not mind reading via my Nook application on my pc and iPhone too.

If you are a lover of paranormal romance, you will like “Hungry for You” too.

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Evesgreenleaf’s Lists

2011 is around the corner and every where a person turns lists, surveys and articles about Top 10 or Top 100 on any and every subject.  These lists are found on TV, the Internet, Magazines, and Radio. So I have decided to create some of my own lists.

The first list, my top ten songs I listen to on my iPhone: 1) Mad World – Donnie Darko, 2) Holding On to Love – Frankie Negron, 3) Hold On, I’m Coming – Sam & Dave, 4) Drops of Jupiter – Train, 5) The Sky Below – Shane Alexander, 6) Walk Like An Egyptian – The Bangles, 7) Lifesong – Casting Crowns, 8) We Will Rock You – Queen, 9) Wheel in the Sky – Journey and 10) Is this Love – Whitesnake.

The second list, my top ten TV Shows that help me while the rainy afternoon away: 1) White Collar, 2) The Vampire Diaries, 3) Supernatural, 4) Stargate Universe, 5) General Hospital, 6) Justified, 7) MacGyver, 8) Hawaii Five-O, 9) Covert Affairs, and 10) Sanctuary.

The third list, the shows I would not waste space on my DVR or my time watching: 1) The Good Wife, 2) Detroit 187, 3) Grey’s Anatomy, 4) Desperate Housewives, 5) The Event, 6) The Office, 7) 30 Rock, 8) any Reality Show!

My fourth list, the shows on my DVR: 1) Supernatural, 2) The Vampire Diaries and 3) White Collar.

My favorite books found loaded to my NOOK iPhone application: 1) Indulgence in Death by JD Robb, 2) A Quick Bite by Lynsay Sands, 3) To Kill a Warlock by HP Mallory and 4) A River in the Sky by Elizabeth Peters.

The men I might like to find under the Christmas tree if I was not already married and such fantasies could come true: 1) Matt Bomer, 2) Robert Wagner, 3) Robert Redford, 4) Ian Somerhalder, 5) George Clooney, 6) Sylvester Stallone, 7) Eric Roberts, 8) Jamie Bamber, 9) Aiden Turner from Being Human and 10) Richard Dean Anderson.

No day is complete without one my favorite foods: 1) any type of pasta with garlic, basil and olive oil, 2) pastrami, 3) chocolate, 4) Lamb, and 5) spinach

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Holiday’s of the Season

Last week, I wrote what Christmas meant to me but I feel the urge to mention that Christmas and the birth of Christ are not the only religious and cultural holiday’s celebrated in December.  Prior to leaving school last week, a teacher started to wish me Merry Christmas but stopped himself.  My reaction was the following comment: “Merry Christmas, Happy Winter Solstice, Happy Hanukkah, and Happy Kwanzaa, everybody has some type of holiday during winter break.”  You may or may not get my drift but in my opinion, too many people worry about what is politically correct during the multi-cultural holiday season.  As a multi-cultural white chick, I thought I would share a little info about some of the different holidays this month. 

Tomorrow, December 21, is the Winter Solstice in the northern hemisphere and falls on a full moon, a special day for my Wiccan friends.  Many celebrations will occur tomorrow around the globe celebrating diverse celebrations with very diverse roots ranging from ancient Brazil to Egypt to Iran to Ireland to the Indigenous of North America; all havee various celebrations honoring transition of darkness to light.

December 8th was Bodhi Day, an annual celebration of the day Buddha achieved enlightenment in 596 BCE and honored by Buddhists as the day Buddhism was founded.

December 25th Christmas Day, the accepted fictional day of Jesus birth and Christians around the world celebrates. I need to clarify I am not saying Jesus is fictional but rather that December 25th is the agreed upon fictional date of birth because historical evidence does not have a record of Jesus or Yeshua of Nazareth’s birthday. A website I discovered has the following to say: “Many symbols and practices associated with Christmas are of Pagan origin: holly, ivy, mistletoe, yule log, the giving of gifts, decorated evergreen tree, magical reindeer, etc. Polydor Virgil, a 15th century British Christian, said “Dancing, masques, mummeries, stageplays, and other such Christmas disorders now in use with Christians, were derived from these Roman Saturnalian and Bacchanalian festivals; which should cause all pious Christians eternally to abominate them.” In Massachusetts, Puritans unsuccessfully tried to ban Christmas entirely during the 17th century, because of its heathenism. The English Parliament abolished Christmas in 1647. Some contemporary Christian faith groups do not celebrate Christmas.”[i]

Hanukkah was celebrated by people of Jewish descendent and practitioner’s of Judaism earlier this month.  A celebration recalling the triumph and retaking of the temple in Jerusalem from the Syrian king in which a menorah with only 24 hours worth of oil lasted 8 days. 

I could write much about the holiday season but you might tune out or fall asleep so I am going to close with the following thought.  It does not matter what your background or belief or religion because the holiday season can allow everyone to take time out of their busy schedules to reflect upon their blessings and their plans for the upcoming year by virtue of the secular seasonal celebrations giving time off from work or school. So in closing, I wish everyone a Merry Christmas!  

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Christmas, what does it mean to you?

Yesterday on the phone a friend queried now that the semester was over how were the Christmas plans.  I laughed and said not.  She asked, Eve have you finished your shopping? No.  Are you going to go shopping? Maybe yes, near Christmas Eve, but I do not recall exactly what else I said; but what I remember is that I end up telling her my plans for Saturday.  I am spending the afternoon volunteering at the Mixteco/Idigena Community Organizing Project’s Fiesta Navideńa. My Pre-Columbian History of Mexico professor works with the community organization based in Ventura County.  The organization puts on an annual Fiesta for the poorest families of the county, Mixteco’s Indians. The community organization provides a Christmas dinner and a toy for each child.

If like my friend in New Jersey who had never heard of the Mixteco’s, maybe you have not either. But if you have ever ate a strawberry grown in California,  then the odds are about 95% that they were picked by a Mixteco.  They are lowest paid farm workers, who work from sun up to sun down stooped over picking strawberries and the many other agricultural crops of Ventura County. They speak an indigenous language, not only do many of them have trouble with English many do not speak Spanish either so it is difficult for them to make their way in community where English and Spanish are primary languages.

But I have majorly digressed, yesterday afternoon I reflected upon my conversation with my friend.  I realize that Christmas means so many different things to different people. To me, Christmas is about spending quality time with my husband, fixing his favorite dishes, listening to our favorite Christmas songs, watching our favorite Christmas movies and reminiscing about our Christmas trips before he got sick. The first years of our marriage, we would travel back to California and spend the holidays with my Grandmother then when she passed in November 2000 we traveled for the holidays.  For the next five years, we traveled, amazing times and memories. Our Christmas traditions have changed but our new traditions are as amazing as any of the previous ones.

So I put out to the universe:  What does Christmas mean to you? What traditions are special to you and your family?

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“A Cab Called Reliable” Essay

One of the books I recently read for an Asian American History class was the novel, A Cab Called Reliable by Patti Kim.  The following is an analysis of the book based on an assigned prompt.

The novel written by Patti Kim, A Cab Called Reliable is a love letter to the recognition that growing up in the United States but born in Korea made for a painful and chaotic life but affirming. The character, Ahn Joo, grows from childhood to adulthood and embraces both of her heritages or rather her dual cultural experience of being Korean and American.  Ahn Joo’s love of writing stems from elementary school achievements; her writing allows her to handle life’s obstacles.

The opening scene of the novel is of Ahn Joo day dreaming on her way home about her 3rd grade class and the upcoming assignment to lead her class in the Pledge of Allegiance.   The main character merrily makes her way home like most 3rd graders full of joy and anticipation thinking of Miss Washburn and then the older girls head to the drug store,  Ahn Joo turns the corner and spies her mother sneaking off with her little brother in a blue cab with word reliable imprinted on the door.  The moment edged in both her conscious and unconscious leads to Ahn Joo asking Miss Washburn, the 3rd grade teacher, where reliable was located.

Miss Washburn used pneumonic devises to teach her students.  For example, how she used words to list out rules for the class. So when Ahn Joo inquired where Reliable might be, Miss Washburn explained that reliable was an adjective not a noun.  The discussion between student and teacher resulted in the recommendation that Ahn Joo “write the word up and down, and think up others that start with the same letters.”[1] Ahn Joo pneumatics writing started with “R is for rain.”[2] Miss Washburn was so impressed with Ahn Joo worked she asked her permission to share with the rest of class which in turn started a project for each student, word of the week. Imagine the joy a 3rd grader would feel at their work being recognized and in the case of Ahn Joo the recognition encourages her to keep writing.

Ahn Joo, as any precocious child, now realizes how being acknowledged as a good writer can help when she needs an excuse.  One of the benefits of Ahn Joo’s focus turning to writing was her creative ability to use the writing as a justification to her father about why her chores were not completed.  For example, one afternoon Ahn Joo spent time with her friend Boris and not going home; as she hurries home she processes creative excuses to give her father: “Got to think of an answer when Fathers asks…got to tell him about volcanoes, long division, and   Christopher Columbus…got to tell him the principal needed help making posters for the class for the entire school and she picked me because I had the best handwriting. Twenty posters in all because the school needed posters in the classrooms and Mr. Albert asked me to write out the rules because I had the best handwriting. He’ll like that.”[3] The influence of living in America is directly reflected in how Ahn Joo processed her reasoning to make a creative excuse on not completing her chores.

Ahn Joo’s father recognizes and uses her writing skills.  The ex-girl friend, Loo Lah, had provided the motivation to Ahn Joo’s father to buy a food vendor truck. Loo Lah had constantly complained about her father’s lack of ambition and questioned why he was satisfied with status quo.  Despite Loo Lah leaving, the result was that after she left Ahn Joo’s father buys the business.  The father asks Ahn Joo for help: “Joo-yah, I need your help…you get good grades in handwriting, don’t you? And you’re good a spelling, aren’t you?”[4] Ahn Joo makes all the signs her father needs for his business.  Her father appreciates the work and acknowledges Ahn Joo’s contribution.

On the weekends, Ahn Joo accompanied her father in their food vending vehicle.  Throughout the story, many times Ahn Joo is mentally conversing with herself or daydreaming.  Ahn Joo has one ear to how her father is handling the customers about the back of the truck while at the same time she is planning her entry into the school’s annual young writer’s competition.  The conversations between Ahn Joo and her father about his life and family back in Korea stimulated her imagination and writing.  Ahn first draft for the writing competition was a three page summary of her aunt’s life.  Ahn Joo was disappointed with her teacher’s response but her comment: “Ahn Joo, do you ever hear voices? Without giving me a chance to respond, she told me to listen to them.”[5] In other words, the teacher was encouraging Ahn Joo to take a moment or a few minutes to listen to her own unique inner voice.

Ahn Joo won her elementary school’s young writer’s competition.  Ahn Joo wrote a poem titled, The Voice of My Mother. Her teacher acknowledged Ahn Joo writing as “mature, honest, powerful, poignant and sophisticated piece of writing.”[6] The writing of the poem helped Ahn Joo verbalized the loss of her mother leaving her behind when she ran away and only took her little brother. Ahn Joo read her poem at her graduation from elementary school, but her father’s initial reaction was when you graduate from college it will be worthy of celebrating.  The attitude expressed by her father could be considered reminiscent or common of the average Asian American family; the expectation of the children to graduate from college.

Through the novel, Ahn Joo spends much of her time expressing her experiences through creative expression.  For example, Ahn Joo wrote a series of letters to her mother sharing details about her father and their life.  The letters range from sharing their new address to sharing how much food is in the freezer.  Since Ahn Joo did not have an address for her mother or know where she was at the letters were not mailed.  The letters themselves were a fine piece of creative writing about the fictional ‘it’s a wonderful life’ Ahn Joo lived. The letters were a testament and creative outlet to the inner suffering Ahn Joo underwent growing up with her father and without her mother.

In sum the novel, A Cab Called Reliable and the main character Ahn Joo express herself about the trials of growing up with painful experiences through creative writing.  Ahn Joo’s story expresses how her love of writing started in elementary school and how the writing was a mechanism to put her experiences into perspective and allow her to have peace and a successful life. In other words, the character completed her schooling including college with the support of her father despite their many difficulties.

[1] Patti Kim, A Cab Called Reliable (New York: St. Martin’s Press, 1997), 21.

[2] Patti Kim, A Cab Called Reliable (New York: St. Martin’s Press, 1997), 23.

[3] Patti Kim, A Cab Called Reliable (New York: St. Martin’s Press, 1997), 33.

[4] Patti Kim, A Cab Called Reliable (New York: St. Martin’s Press, 1997), 76.

[5] Patti Kim, A Cab Called Reliable (New York: St. Martin’s Press, 1997), 90-91.

[6] Patti Kim, A Cab Called Reliable (New York: St. Martin’s Press, 1997), 91.

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