The thoughts that come across your brain when you are sitting in the patient room in a doctor’s office can range from strange to obtuse to happy to paranoid.  Yesterday I was at the doctor for a follow-up appointment for my sprained ankle and first of the usual: step on the scale (thrilled by being weighting less than last visit), measuring height, blood pressure, pulse and temperature.  The nurse leaves and the yellow walls, pretty red poppies in the paintings are very happy and cheerful but then as I sit the insulated and quiet room becomes deafening with my internal thoughts.

When a person sits with themselves and allows their mind to clear the thoughts that bubble up are frightening to enlightening.  Described as an over imaginative child who wondered what type of scary creature was coming out from the walls, from under the bed or behind the door.  Yesterday, the cheerfulness of the room, reminded of a doctor I saw as a teenage for some type of sport injury.  He was tall, black framed glasses and balding. It was like he popped out of the wall to inspect my progress and judge my progress.  The memory gave me pause because I had to stop and wonder what made me think of an event that transpired a few years ago (okay maybe more than a few).   What about a sunny room made me travel back in time?

Back two and half months ago when I took my spectacular fall (not from snowboarding or playing volleyball but from just taking a wrong step on a flat surface) injuring my left knee and right ankle. The eight weeks on crutches and still using a cane (colorful and hand painted) reminded me of the times I had previously injured my knee and ankle when I was teenager.  It is funny or ironic and disconcerting that sitting in the sunny yellow room with red poppies my thoughts are drawn back to my teenage years especially when you consider I have an amazing doctor. She never rushes, takes time not to thoroughly discuss my progress but also make sure my overall wellbeing is good very much the opposite feeling I received from the doctor so many years ago.